I have a computer full of e-books, more courses than I could probably get through in the next 20 years, audios that could fill the next 30 years after them and more hardcopy books than some local libraries. I love learning. I may very well be an addict.
One thing I haven’t done much of, though, is live events. Not for lack of wanting, but there aren’t too many local to me here down in Australia, and usually I don’t find out about them until after the event. Yesterday, I got an emailed invitation to a live course. For a change this one hadn’t happened yet. I decided I’d love to go.
Then I discovered it was over $3,000.
Even so, I found myself trying to think of ways to come up with enough money to attend. I wanted to so badly. It was on a topic dear to my heart – repairing our beliefs about what we’re worth. I started wondering if I’d get my tax money back in time.
Then I realised what I was doing.
The truth is, courses will always keep coming along. Books will always be available, audios and videos are not likely to stop being produced anytime soon. Many of them re-hash the same ideas we’ve heard, read or watched before.
I’ve recently come to the conclusion that chasing learning for it’s own sake is futile. Learning something new is fundamentally useless unless I take action to apply it.
Today I realised there’s another part to the equation. The ideas we most love to hear are the ones we already know.
I realised that the attraction of learning is not necessarily always the idea of growing in a new direction. Sometimes it can be as simple as wanting someone outside us to lend their authority and weight to our own knowledge. We already know what we should be doing, but we don’t honour that knowledge unless it comes from an authority figure – someone (anyone) outside of ourselves.
Why do we find it so hard to believe in our own authority?
I’ve got as many, if not more, experiences than a lot of these people I listen to and buy from. The results I’ve got are in some cases a lot more spectacular and/or profound than what I read in these sales pitches. But still I’ve felt compelled to listen to what they have to offer. What’s worse is that I’ve silenced my own voice to do it. I’ve given other people’s words more weight than my own. Why?
I choose, here and now, to elevate my inner wisdom to a higher level of authority. I commit to spending less time seeking sources of knowledge outside myself, until I’ve fully explored where the wisdom and experience I already hold within my own heart can take me.
Anyone else want to take the same pledge?